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don't askNow Playing: mike jones- Next to You
Topic: addiction
i still find myself, everyday, thinking about using. I see how its destroyed my life, but yet i crave that rush. Someone once told me that i was worth way more than a bag of dope and a dirty needle, but after shooting heroin since i was 16 it makes me wonder, am i really worth more than that? Its taken 4 years of my life and made them hell, but i keep finding myself back at the dealers house. Even after i got out of rehab, i was going to NA meetings, but i was fantasizing about getting high. And eventually i hooked up with a kid named chris and we blew off the meetings to get high and i havent been able to stop since. I have over 100 days clean. Now im lucky if i can get one.